Okay, before I get too excited this has happened before. We get into a fight. I say I want out. He say's fine. Usually because he has been eyeing some leggy blonde. So he dates and I don't care. I date, and his panties get all in a bunch! Course this just happened last night. I knew he was already running around with the blonde cause little does he know, his brother has been my informant to every little thing he does that I am supposed to remain "unaware" of. This was the first time since he "forgot a condom" that he was willing to say, you're right it's over. So I need to send her a basket of thanks and welcome her into the picture!
Wow. This sounds so sick reading it back. How did I get myself into such a twisted existense with this man? It started when I was young and dumb and was blinded by money. Gotta love that stuff. And my big debate has been can I live without so much of it? With two kids. Well, I guess I gotta start figuring that out, cause while he is still supporting me now, I don't see it last if the angel (what i will refer to her as, or maybe next victim?) has her say in it. I know females when it comes to money and she ain't gonna be liking her new sugardaddy, umm i mean boyfriend, handing out dough to his ex.
Speaking of support, when I made it clear that I wasn't going to get married for insurance purposes, he bought me independent insurance. And has it paid up for six months. So I don't have to worry so much about the follow up on my back that I was supposed to get in June. I will be covered as of August 15 and can get it. This new found rush came when the er doctor over the weekend took the time from his busy Saturday night schedule to ask if I was an idiot? Most guys don't come onto me that way.... (yeah that was in my head, he was cute tho!) But I got the this is a very serious injury lecture. And I came back with the I don't have insurance, the follow up is with a specialist, it's not going to happen reply. And he shot a dirty look at Jerry (that coulda been in my head too). And kept on going with the possible outcomes of this type of injury left unmonitored. So my mind went into panic mode cause I havn't even been wearing the brace since a month after the accident. Sure theres paralysis, and death, but who wants to end up with a hump??? Anyway, I was there because I had a muscle spasm about 8 pm that never went away with triple dose baclofen (a muscle relaxer for my non pill fan peeps). And basically I was bent at the waist, unable to straighten crying and screaming in agony. They took me straight back at the er given the nature of my previous injury. After a few rounds of whatever and being very dopey I was still in pain and couldnt move. So they gave me some vikadin
and had me sign a release for another medicince. A release? Oh if I wasn't so doped I woulda shoulda asked. But they come in with this long needle. Ehh, number one. "Hunni we need you flat on your stomach, hold your breath, dont move whatever you do. Ehhh, number two. Okay your gonna feel a pinch when the needle goes in. Okay been here before. Wait thats my back, Ouch. "Oh didn't the doctor tell you this is delivered into the affected area?" Why no he did not. Couldn't you tell by my surprise? "Okay a slow burn, theres about 2 mg here." (i could easily have that amount wrong, i was on so much by that point)HUH??? And yep it burnt.
So then I am laying there and I can literally feel this stuff traveling thoughout my body (but then again i was pretty well doped). Needless to say 20 mins later I was a mess. I slurred. I was convinced the machine next to me was falling . i found peoples names written in the ceiling. Oh, in my defense an instrument off of the machine I was so worried about striking me in my bed, actually did fall. SO I just seen it happening all slow mo and before hand :).
LMAO brb my daughter just got peed on by my son.. wasn't as bad as it sounds, she tried to play mommy and crawls in the crib with him and changes his diaper, this time he got her, and she cried. I wish they would be a little more noisy when they get up though, cause I really don't like her doing it.
okay this is turning out long... anyways an hour after the mystery drug I was good to go. My back still had some twitches and twinges but not serious spasms. I did ask though what the drug was and apparantly it's some medicine they use for parkinsons patients.
So that was my weekend in a nutshell. I had to turn down "chilling' with Ian last night cause I was so tired. He's always so damn busy I never ever see him. Oh well. So the next month should get interesting I would imagine!
